I Don't Actually Own A Reset Button, But I Am Going to Pretend I Do. I Shall Hit It Today After Grading (If I Finish) and I Will Sever from the Insanity

My Friday for grading was a failure. Why? Bussing fiasco 2026 when school districts push against field trips and make payment for buses virtually impossible. If the university would allow me to take out cash, I would and I'd drive it to the schools so they can pay for the buses, because they no longer allow for 3rd parties to pay for buses - it must come from the school. So, now the paper work goes between three entities, all with layered bureaucracy. I just shake my head in disbelief. I have funding. It's for buses. Let me pay you. 

Nope. Now, it's weeks of additional paper work and waiting. I always shake my head and colleagues and administrators who don't understand. They don't understand because they send such work to others to take care of and report back to them. I don't have such help. I once did, but it's dwindled over the years and has never been replaced.

I do know, that the pace I've been keeping for over two years (2? more like 15) needs to slow down. I think I'm more over the edge than usual because of the two sections of research over the winter break. There has not been down time in way over a year.

I will not be teaching in June. I am separating. I will have to prepare CWP work, but I need the summer months to restore faith in what matters, what is good, and what is possible. 

Today it shall rain. I will grade. I can't let anything distract me because it needs to get done; afterwards, I still have mountains to accomplish, but I can separate it from students, the departmental demands, the planning, the teaching, and the assessing. I should be able to breathe.

I am so ready to reset.